General DiscussionHave you played a ranked game under not so ideal physical and mental ...

i don't think i've ever been in ideal physical and mental condition

i don't think i've ever been in ideal physical and mental condition

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when I feel that I am not in a good condition to play ranked games, I will just go for ability draft games or custom games to vent the conditions away

I exclusively play in poor mental or physical condition, preferably both.
If I were playing in IDEAL conditions, then I wouldn't be able to delude myself into thinking that "If I were in a better condition, I would have won this shitfest of a game despite everything that happened, because I'm that good", you know.

I always play ranked no matter what cause i find normal all pick games boring.
When i usually fight with my girlfriend i get easily tilted in games and find it hard to focus

normally i used to do that. but now i know if i play ranked in a bad condition, most likely i'll lose

Playing all pick unranked is a waste of time imo. Play ranked exclusively no matter the conditions, afterall it's a game not your profession (ranked because people are more likely to pick known heroes resulting in a better overall gaming experience)

I once played dota with 2 fingers in a splint on my left hand, had to go Wraith king and not build any active items.

Two part response.

First part. I have severe trouble sleeping and my brain works 'harder' so to say in a ranked game then it does in a normal match. So I play with sleep deprivation a lot. Also when I'm depressed I play to try to get my mind to go blank.

Second part. I've played so sleep deprived I have literally fallen asleep, only once, while playing Crystal Maiden in a ranked match and woke up to the loud bang of the sound of the abandon.

So you're saying I should never play ranked? Screw you man. If I were in a good mental condition I wouldn't play any dota in the first place. So, fuck off

am i the only one who doesnt play ranked when he doesnt feel well? :D

i dont even play ranked after i drank more than 2 beer

2 years ago I was under severe depression and after multiple suicide attempts

I think that's the reason I found myself most comfortable playing the support position, being able to convey positive attitude and keeping high morals in the team gave me much needed welfare

Not particularly a good thing, but that experience imo made me one of the more selfless supports I saw in games, I rarely prioritize my own needs over the team, and it is being reflected in my score

Please do tell me how does a Suicidal person convey positive attitude and keep high morals ? thats like the absolute opposite of a suicidal person

I used to mask my own depression, trying to make people care about me as less as possible due to horrible self esteem. Basically I dedicated my life on trying to make people as happy as I can without making them attach to me, frequently in the price of my own well being

BTW I'm after multiple psychiatric sessions and I am clear from antidepressants for almost 2 years, and I didn't have psychosis outbursts since, so no need to worry about me nowadays